To Kill A Mockingbird Post 6 (Chapters: 16-19, Perspective: Mr. Ewell)

That No Good Lawyer
May 20

When that lawyer, Atticus, walked in to the room I knew I would have trouble with the jury buying the case so easily. That lawyer is only a Negro lover, and he is a disgrace to his whole family, and the town of Maycomb. I could have punched that Atticus for the way he was mocking me and Mayella like that. He seemed oblivious to the fact that he was just plain rude and disgusting. Although it is a serious matter putting the defendant, Tom Robinson, in jail, I could not begrudge that Atticus the pleasure of appearing in court and embarrassing me. N’ fact I could have punched both him and that no good snot nosed judge, something Taylor, too. Atticus was proceeding so amiably when he was cross-examining me, I had to infuriate and anger the judge and Atticus. I may as well say that I did a mighty good job at getting them mad.

I am ashamed the way the town of Maycomb has gone downhill since I went there as a child. People now treat each other as equals and they care about blacks and whites living together and having mixed children. It started with Atticus, and everyone wanting to be as noble and kind as him. That’s when everyone started treating each other with some respect.

I have no clue why I write in this little “journal”. Mayella somehow convinced me to use it every night, because it would “help release my stress and anger.” It’s a cheap journal anyway, and she got it for a low price from those Negroes down by the dump. She’s always getting things from them, being so polite and kind towards them. They’re like the dirt stuck on my shoes. They don’t work hard or even try. They indulge themselves, and they’re so rude. They just sit around and complain. When Mayella was with that Tom Robinson, I saw her hug him, and I knew something had to be done about that Negro. I then came up with a plan to have him charged with rape. I was pretty sure we would have no trouble getting him to jail, but then that Atticus and his logic and mocking attitude came into the courthouse. I knew he would be trouble, and I knew he would try to uncover and ruin the plan I had created.